Thursday, February 25, 2010

Happy 4th Birthday Breeana!

Can't believe my little girl is 4 years old today! She keeps me on my toes, is full of energy, major drama queen, a wonderful big sister, and gives the best snuggles! I love her so much and am so thankful she is mine!

We had Bree's birthday party on the 20th. She wanted a CARS party so that is what she got. She informed Ashley at the last minute that she was having a Princess cake at her CARS party so Scott and I ran to walmart and got her some Princess cupcakes to go with her CARS cake. Gotta keep the birthday girl happy.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Sawyer James Hayes

Sawyer was born February 15. He weighed in at a big 8 lbs 12 oz and was 21 inches long, he is my biggest baby! He is a really good baby so far, he mostly sleeps and eats. Breeana is a bit smitten with him. This morning she jabbed me and said "Mom, Sawyer is fussing you probably need to wake up now!" I am not sure what Jarrett thinks and I have yet to get a good picture of the boys together.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Just a few weeks...

January 31st marked a year since I had a miscarriage. It was harder on me emotionally then I had ever dreamed it would be. I found myself feeling selfish for wanting my baby back, especially when I have Breeana, Jarrett, and we will meet Sawyer in a few short days. However I believe life begins at conception and even though I was only pregnant for 10 short weeks, I fell in love with my baby just as I did with Bree, Jarrett, and now Sawyer, and my heart aches for the baby I never got to hold.

I was reading a friends blog (her son Trevor Mark was born just shy of 18 weeks) and she had posted this poem. I think it pretty much sums up my feelings and probably the feelings of any mom who has experienced a miscarriage.

For those few weeks-I had you to myself.
And that seems to short a time to be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks-I came to know you...and to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I had planned for you!

Just those few weeks-When I lost you,
I lost a lifetime of hopes,plans, dreams and aspirations...
A slice of my future simply vanished overnight.

Just those few weeks-
It wasn't enough time to convince others
how special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
and no one is mourning the passing.

Just a mere few weeks-
And no "normal" person would cry all night over a tiny,
unfinished baby,or get depressed
and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?

You were just those few weeks my little one
you darted in and out my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
to make my life so much richer and give me
a small glimpse of eternity.

By Susan Erling Martinez
A poem about Miscarriage

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Visitors From Glenpool

My friend Robin and her boys, Jalen & Jace, visited us a couple weeks ago. They only got to stay one night, but I am glad Robin finally got to see where I live. I know she was IMPRESSED with wonderful Woodward!!! Robin and I have been friends since we were in 6th grade that makes 16 years now I think. Wow we are getting old!!!!! Jace and Jarrett are 6 months apart, they pretty much ignored each other. Bree and Jalen are about a month shy of being a year apart. They played so good together.

Robin and I
Jace and Jarrett

Bree and Jalen after Jalen finally decided the net tunnel at Mcd's was safe to cross!!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Christmas #3 2009 (only a month late!)

So Ashley says I have been slacking so I am going to try and catch up! Here are a few pictures from Christmas weekend with Scott's parents. We had fun except we had to take Scott, Bree, and Jarrett all to urgent care the day after Christmas. Scott had staph infection in his nose, Bree had staph on her finger, and Jarrett ended up only having a stye on his eye. They were all minor infections and the doc put all three on antibiotic. They were all feeling better by the time we came home.

Ryan checking out Jarrett's gift! Bree and Jarrett checking out what Santa brought them to Mema and Papa's house.

And one of the highlights of the trip...all of the snow the Tulsa area got over Christmas. They didn't stay out long, it was so cold.

Jarrett was in love with his Papa! I think Papa ended up holding him alot, which is fine with me because it gave me a little break!