Last year on Nov. 3rd I found out I was pregnant with Jarrett. My first thought was "I can't believe I am pregnant." and my second was "How do I tell Shane and Ashley?" You see they had been trying to have a baby, and at that time in my life my hearts desire was for them to get pregnant, not me. (Don't get me wrong I wanted another baby, but I was praying more for Shane and Ashley to conceive, not myself.) According to doctor's Shane and Ash would not be able to conceive so this made it even harder for me to tell them. Part of it was b/c I was in their shoes for 4 years before Scott and I got pregnant with Bree. The only difference we were never told we couldn't conceive, it just took 4 years. So in part I knew what they would feel, I was scared because I didn't want them to be angry with me as I had been with some people when Scott and I were trying for a baby, and hoped they would know how my heart was hurting through my joy. I waited a couple of days and then Ashley and I were at my mom's house and I knew I had to tell her. I remember it very clearly even to this day. Ashley was at the computer and I walked into the room and said "Ashley I have to tell you something"...and then I starting crying, not just crying sobbing as I told her my news, that was probably one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my entire life. To my shock she jumped up and hugged me and said she was so happy for me threw tears of her own. I knew that she truly was and yet she was hurting at the same time as was my brother. I made a commitment at that moment to pray everyday for God to bless Shane and Ashley with a baby. And in the mean time I was more than happy to share my babies with them.
Now for the fun part....
Thursday almost exactly a year after I had to tell them I was pregnant, I got to be with Ashley when she found out she was pregnant and hug her and cry with her tears of joy instead of sadness! And then watch my brother fumble threw a bag of baby stuff wondering what the heck was going on and then reading a note at the bottom that said "Your going to be a daddy!" and then burying his face in his hands trying to not let us see him cry! I know they are going to be wonderful parents to the little peanut growing inside of Ashley and I can't wait to spoil my little niece or nephew and then send them HOME!!!! Shane and Ashley paybacks are coming!!!!
I often wonder why God orchestrates events in our lives the way He does, but who am I to question God. God has a purpose for everything that happens, although we may never know what it is until we look back a few years later and then again we may never know. All I know is a miracle baby, that I already love so much, will be born sometime in the first week of July, and I can't wait to meet him/her!
God you are an Awesome God! I praise you for the miracle of life! Father wrap Your loving arms around Shane and Ashley's precious baby as he/she grows and forms inside of Ashley. Calm any fears or worries they may have so they can truly enjoy what is taking place in their lives. Thank You so much for answering my prayer!